ive been seeing many strange things recently.. though i put on a cheerful front infront of everybody im around, i cant help bt go back to be my lonely self when im with only him and her..

i wanna go.. to where he is.. i wanna go so badly.. i wanna go NOW..

the melonweed is nt bothering me, keeps trying to though.. i just simply cant be bothered with him.. smiling rather sarcastically at him always, he'll show me his "sorry" look and i'll ignore him, sending him away silently.

Itami wa chishio, kai no kizu ni shihatari.
Itami wa mo hitori wa anata no ushiro ni shishou,
sentai ni,
an-ta no tomodachi wa an-ta no me ni gyoushi.
Itami wa hito tachi wa jibun ni AKUSEPUTO te mate ta,
date, anata wa tsuuretsu no tsumetai ni sute da.
Itami wa hito wo anata no kizu ga itami wo mite ta,
demo kigurou te nai de, mo yakkai te nai.
Itami wa jibun ni FEIRUDO wo mitsuketa,
ano zetai ACHIIVU no wa.
Itami wa tomodachi no mondai wa kikoete,
nakute,
moto hayaii ni kare wo shiru ni negaita,
kare wa ishouni to.
date..
Itami wa ai.
an-ta wa hontou ni hito wo ai kara,
kanarazu.. sekai ni zenbu no itami wo AKUSEPUTO de,
watashi de.. sekai ni zenbu no itami wo AKUSEPUTO da..

anata no tame ni.

any of u out there who knows wad true pain is? i wanna know.. if u know more than i do.. i wanna know.. wad true pain really is.. what is your defination of it?

i had some visions as well.. wad would be happening tt day will take place in my dreams the day before it does happen..